Food Feelings

It's interesting because as I go throughout my day I keep forgetting that I'm not eating sugary goodness anymore. And every time I remember I just feel a loss and sadness (so weird, it's not like someone died). It's not really the actual taste of the food itself that I miss, it's the comfort of eating it. I don't even know how to explain it. But I know I'm okay not eating that food anymore. I just miss the act of doing it. I miss the feeling it gives me that everything is going to be okay. But the things I don't miss are feeling the shame and guilt afterwards. I feel proud of myself and good about making this change. I look forward to having more energy and less dependence on something. An addiction to anything feels like you're trapped and enslaved. And one of the things I value more than almost anything else is the feeling of freedom.

Also, on Tuesday night I met with my bishop and I was very nervous to just go in and say "hey I have an addiction to food, so..." But it went really well and I didn't even cry until he gave me a blessing (because it was a very powerful and AMAZING blessing!) He was so encouraging and I'm so glad I met with him. He said that he's impressed with how far I've progressed on my own. I just wanted to make sure I was doing everything in my power to overcome this problem and to really try. I came out of the meeting just feeling so positive and that I was on the right track. And the things promised in the blessing make me very excited!!!!