Can anybody? Find me.... Somebody to.... LOVE!?!?!!!

SSSSSSSSSSSSIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................(huge exhalation of breath).... Well. Dang it. Okay, so sometimes I feel a lot of pressure the older I get, the more I need to get married. (Even though technically I beat out everyone else I knew by getting married before everyone else at age 18... but we all know how well that turned out). But at other times I feel a NEED and a DESIRE to get married. This is one of those times. The thing is, it would be super wonderful and lovey dovey and nice to have someone who loved me and cared about me. But even more than that is that I have so much freaking love inside of me and it's dying to get out and love someone else. To take care of someone. To meet all of someone else's needs. Don't get me wrong, I'm not like "oh I just want to be the little wifey who does everything for her husband and worships him and puts her needs last". That's not what I'm saying. The problem is (maybe it's not a problem?) I'm a very loving person and I need to show and express that love. I want to be a wife. I want to be the person that someone can turn to for advice, a laugh, a tender touch. I want companionship. Why oh why do I have to be so tender hearted?!?!
You would think that having an abusive and failed marriage would make me shy away from remarrying. But no. It's made me very excited and curious. Yes curious. I want to know what is it like to be married to a good man who treats you as you should be treated? What must it be like to have someone give you the respect and love you deserve? To have someone who supports you in your dreams and uplifts you instead of tearing you down? I remember when I first started hanging out with Kamila and her husband Dan and I noticed the way Dan treated her. I was very surprised. Kamila would mention offhandedly something that Dan did or said to her and I just couldn't believe that a husband would treat his wife that nicely ALL THE TIME!!! But he did and he does. And I was also impressed that his treatment of her was not conditional. It wasn't "if you behave a certain way, then I'll treat you well". I am certainly very grateful for Dan and Kamila's example of marriage. And also for the kindness Dan showed to me. It was great to have a wonderful example of how men should/can treat women.
The interesting thing is, I have felt several times this year very very strongly that I will be meeting my future husband soon. "Soon" is pretty arbitrary when it comes to spiritual promptings though... But sometimes I think it will be at the end of this year. At other times I think it will be a couple of more years before I meet him. I don't know when it will be, but I have been reassured time and time again that it WILL happen. And that he will be WONDERFUL AND AMAZING!!!!!!!!! I know he will be worth the wait. And until I meet him, I'm getting stronger and stronger in my talents, character, faith, charity, etc. I'm becoming more of who I was in the pre-existance. And I'm learning that whoever he is, he sure is gonna have one hell of a wife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and a pretty amazing woman! (But I wish he would hurry it up!!!)